"allow me to de-influence You" : What a Creative Life Actually Means

anti muse

“I’m not here to spark you. I’m here to burn.”

There was a time in my life when I felt called to inspire those around me to ignite creativity, to be the one who reminded others of their own light. I wasn’t just creating; I was encouraging everyone else to channel their energy into something meaningful, something beautiful. And I still believe in the power of creation. But lately, I've stepped back from being the muse. I've become the anti-muse not out of bitterness, but out of clarity.

I no longer feel the need to lead the way. Instead, I want to embody the way. Quietly. Fully. Not through instruction, but through presence.

After a decade of pouring myself into my craft, I’ve entered my early 30s with something far more valuable than status or material wealth.

I’ve come to see that a creative life isn’t about what you produce it’s about how you move through the world. It’s in the way you wake up, the way you speak to yourself, the way you respond when life knocks you sideways. Each moment asks for a choice: will I react logically, or will I respond creatively?

There’s a harmony in honoring both the rational mind and the intuitive soul. When they dance together, I feel aligned. Balanced. Even when the world spins fast and uncertain, I remain grounded. Rooted. A still point in the turning. Something like a paradox.